Next time, on “Adventures in Teaching”…

Today was the last day of school for 2009, woo hoo!!!

Many students were absent from school today and I didn’t expect a lot of learning to happen today, but I was really happy about an interaction with one of my Algebra 1 students. I’ve been a bit confused by this student because his English skills seem extremely poor (can’t form even simple complete sentences in English) but yet he tells me that he understands what we do in class. He finally turned in homework for the first time on Wednesday and I realized that he is not doing his homework because he doesn’t understand the directions and problem statements. (DUH!)

We sat down today and with the help of Google Translate I was able to communicate with him and start a glossary of important mathematical words such as “expression” (the mathematical kind) or “order of operations.” He eagerly started working on homework problems that he had left blank. He also agreed to come after school starting in January for tutoring. Progress! Yay!

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This blog will probably be quiet for the next few weeks as I go into hibernation. To encourage you all to come back in January, I leave you with a little cliffhanger…  Rumor has it that some teachers are going to be let go at our school at the end of this semester (end January). Our counselor talked to me about some possible changes to my course load. (I guess that means I’m not one of the teachers that will be let go?) I may pick up an entirely new Algebra 2 class. I’m really praying that I don’t have four preps. Stay tuned for the exciting resolution next time on “Adventures in Teaching…”

Happy holidays, everyone!

District’s new policy: Be tougher on new teachers

Today, the superintendent of our district made an announcement that the district will now try harder to weed out ineffective new teachers before they become somewhat permanent (after two years).

As much as I want students to receive high quality instruction, I don’t agree with this new policy.

First of all, we’ve got to find a way to measure teacher quality comprehensively before we start trying to define who is a good teacher and who is bad. There are many ways for teachers to be good, many ways for them to be bad. For example, imagine you’ve got two teachers. Teacher A is extremely dedicated, talented, and knows her content material but refuses to “teach to the test” so her students don’t do as well as her colleague, Teacher B, who isn’t as creative, smart, or talented but instead gives students near exact replicas of test questions before the district’s assessment? If teachers are evaluated based on their students’ performance on a standardized assessment, doesn’t that seem unfair?

Second point: we’ve got to find more effective ways to help teachers develop before we think about getting rid of them. Putting aside this economic downturn, all the reports I’ve read point to a continuing shortage of qualified teachers in California over the next decade.

Final point: TEACHING IS SO INCREDIBLY HARD!!! I have been teaching at the university level for over 10 years and had jobs related to teaching math for 28 years and so far this one year of teaching high school has been so incredibly difficult. I feel so inadequate all the time. A veteran teacher told me that the second year is easier than the first, but it’s not until the fifth year or so that one really starts to feel good about his/her teaching. How can we expect new teachers to be effective in their first two years of service?

The district’s new policy will focus on new teachers that get a “Needs Improvement” on one or more criteria on their evaluations. The way things have been going for me this year, I would definitely be one of those teachers that gets a “Needs Improvement.”

Bunch of updates

1. It’s hard for students to focus during the last week of school. I rewarded one of my classes with a pizza party for working so hard on a test. The students were playing their music during the party and it made my smile to hear them getting excited over music from the 80s.

2. One of my students has been behaving badly in class and I wrote a note to her basketball coach to ask for his advice on how to reach her. The note set off a chain of unexpected events. First, the student was suspended from the team. She was angry at me today, but I think we had a good chat and got over that. Then, the coach came to my class today and used up the last 15 minutes to lecture the entire class. He was trying to be helpful, but it definitely was not the way I was intending to end class for 2009. He even started giving them a mini lesson on how to calculate percent!! (?!)

3. Grades had to be turned in today. I didn’t have any problems with the computer system for grade entry this time. Woo hoo!

4. Magic erasers are amazing! I was able to remove some tagging (sharpie on painted metal door) with one. AMAZING! And all the scuff marks on walls–GONE IN A FLASH! Seriously, I can’t begin to tell you how much I love magic erasers. I need to figure out how to get them to underwrite this blog.

December test

A bit cruel to give a test during the last week of school in December, but our 15-week grading period is this week so it made sense to have another test on which to base this grade.

All of those thoughts about “teaching to the test” came back again. Even though our math department collectively wrote the assessments, they still included questions on material that I haven’t yet discussed in my class. I just told my students to skip those questions. But even on the material they should have known, students didn’t do very well again. I have to keep telling myself that it’s a process and that everyone is moving forward, even if the progress is very small.

Three more days.

Distributive property

It’s been a roller-coaster week. The beginning of the week was really rough but encouragement from friends helped me recharge a bit.

Some good progress to report today. Nearly all my Algebra 1 students were successfully applying the distributive property after a short lesson today. (Lesson involved cut out pictures of food stuck to the whiteboard with magnets.)

After a few examples like this, I asked students to work in groups and then come to the board to write out the answers to some problems involving the distributive property. Either they already knew about the distributive property, or the food analogy helped.

One week left before Winter Break.

Teaching is hard

Teaching high school is so immensely difficult. I am too stubborn to give up, but lately that feeling of wanting to give up is getting stronger.

Lots of people have been asking me questions like “What is the hardest thing about teaching high school?” I still can’t fully articulate an answer to this question, but here is a first attempt.

1. It’s so easy to stop caring. Most of the kids at my school are disrespectful to me and each other, do not care about learning, do not seem to care about their future. For these first few months, I’ve been drawing on my enthusiasm for the job and compassion for these kids (many of these kids have rough circumstances, they need someone to care for them, they need someone to explain to them why getting an education matters, etc.) to make it to work every day and try my best. Lately, my “reserves” are running empty. I put out so much energy and get so little back from the kids. The moments when I feel successful are too few and far between, and sometimes seem like delusions: one day I feel like I’m getting through to a kid, the next day he/she is behaving worse than before. The ups and downs are emotionally draining. It’s hard to keep going like this. It would be far easier to just do a mediocre job, stop hoping that kids would achieve more and feeling disappointed, and quit caring.

2. It sucks to know you suck at your job. I am fragile, prideful and have an ego. It’s a real shock going from my university where I felt good at my job and felt validated, appreciated and respected for it, to a situation in which my skills and knowledge are inadequate and I do not feel respected by students. I am good at some parts of teaching high school, in other areas I am lacking (for example, discipline). The other day I wrote about how intrinsic motivation is strongly tied to a feeling of self-efficacy–well, that applies to me too. It’s hard to feel motivated when you feel ineffectual. And when you force yourself to do something when you’re feeling unmotivated, you lose the joy of it all.

Who in their right mind would take on a job like this? No wonder the public school teacher attrition is so high.

If it weren’t for a friend and colleague who reached out to me today, listened to me vent, and encouraged me, I probably wouldn’t have the presence of mind to write these words. Our schools need more teachers like this person.

Winter vacation can’t come a moment too soon.

Horrible Monday

Mondays are hard. Each class is roughly 40 minutes long and it’s hard to get anything done. Students were so restless today, it was hard to get them to do anything. Days like this when I feel totally exhausted but that I didn’t accomplish anything. Sometimes I really hate this job and I regret my decision to do this. Sorry to disappoint, but this is the truth and it’s how I’m feeling today.