Going back to my home university has been a bit of a shock over the last few days. I finally figured a contributing reason: Last year I got used to an environment in which decisions didn’t seem to be made with a lot of careful thought. Administration and teachers (me included) just did the best we could and we didn’t sweat the small stuff. Lots of things and students fell through the cracks. So, the level of detail that goes into decisions made at our university seemed a bit overwhelming when I first stepped back on campus.
Example: Our school is small so one of our associate deans manually matches first-year students with faculty based on their personalities, interests and other things that they might have in common. This associate dean briefed me on some facts about my advisees and what kind of advising might need. A lovely thing to do, and completely worthwhile. But, this feels totally foreign to me right now given my experience over the past year. I immediately thought about a girl in my Geometry class who I discovered was enrolled in a second Geometry class by mistake. I discovered this about two months into the semester.
Student: “Oh Mister, I did this already in my other Geometry class.”
Another example: Today I talked with two other colleagues who are co-teaching a course. We talked about common themes between the different topics that we are planning on teaching and how to make more connections to bring these themes out. Awesome awesome awesome. I missed this kind of conversation. Made me sad that I never got to talk about such things at that level with my colleagues last year. And it’s not like that took a huge amount of time to have that conversation…
I received this letter today in the mail from my school district:
Our records show that you have received an overpayment as a result of a change that was processed in June 2010. The total adjusted gross amount of your overpayment is $12,197.66. This letter is intended to advise you of your options in repaying the identified overpayment.”
This is ridiculous. I definitely have not been overpaid this amount.
Since September 2009, I received a total of $17,454.97 from the school district. There, now the entire world knows how much I made from my year of teaching high school (at a part timer’s rate, for someone with alternative credential).
Now the’re telling me I was overpaid by $12,197.66 and they want their money back?
That would mean that I would only have made $5,257.31 for the entire school year. Is that how much my effort was worth?
When I first read the letter, I was furious. After talking to a dear friend who went through something much worse with the district, now I find the whole thing so completely stupid and ridiculous.
I’m here nearing the end of a three-week professional development workshop for secondary school math teachers. I knew that it was going to be an excellent experience for me coming off of my year of teaching, and I was not disappointed.
Over the past three weeks, I have been surrounded by teachers that I trust and respect deeply who have asked questions and pushed me to think and articulate things that up to this point have been just too raw and recent to touch. And today, I got the chance to talk about my experiences over the past year with them. I won’t forget this one hour of sharing and conversation for a long time.
The encouragement I felt was incredible. One part of me felt like the whole thing was too indulgent–why should these people find it admirable for me to teach high school for a year when these same people do it themselves year after year? And yet, another part of me was soaking it all in. It was an emotional experience for me and many others in the room, I think because there was a shared experience and understanding that deeply connected us.
So what was gained from this hour? I realized that the emotional struggles of a being a high school teacher far outweighed the instructional, intellectual, physical, logistical challenges and that this was natural and not unusual. It was helpful to be reminded by other teachers that your reputation has a huge impact at school and that the first year at any school will always be difficult because of students’ uncertainty about you. It was helpful to be told that instructional changes take a long time and are supposed to happen slowly, and that I can’t expect to be good at teaching in a new setting in one year. It was helpful to be told that the fruits of a high school teacher are rarely observed by that teacher. It was helpful to be told that not being able to get off to a good start with your students on day 1 (let alone week 4) is very detrimental to classroom climate.
A colleague asked me, what lessons did I learn that will affect the way I lead professional development for teachers? I’m still trying to think beyond the obvious answer (that I now have much more empathy for and understanding of the work that teachers do). Stay tuned.
It was a bit strange to wake up the last few days and not have to go to school. Last night I dreamt I was going to work on the first day of my second year of teaching high school. The weird thing is that I was a passenger in a car with two strangers and we were very lost. It was clear that I wasn’t going to make it to school on time and I was freaking out about missing the first day of school. Then I woke up…
Just in case you were wondering, I will be going back to my home university in September and will not be teaching high school again in the near future. This summer, I will be traveling and attending various teacher professional development workshops. During that time, I hope to process all that I’ve experienced over the past 9 months so that I can give a more coherent answer to all the people who have been asking and will ask me, “So, what have you learned?” (Maybe the dream I mentioned is an indication that my brain is trying to work through things.) If you see any common threads in this blog, I hope you’ll also write to me to tell me your thoughts.
In the meantime, I probably won’t be updating this blog regularly. So, let me take this opportunity to thank you all for joining me on this adventure. I’m very grateful for all of the kind words of encouragement that many of you have sent to me this year. Thank you!
P.S. And please do me a favor–next time you meet a teacher, please tell her/him how much you appreciate the work that she/he does.
Ah! What better way to end the school year than having your classroom broken into?
Today is a pupil-free today, which we’re supposed to use to clean up our rooms and pack up our stuff. When my colleague and I got to our classroom this morning, we noticed that students had gone through her stuff. (My stuff is pretty much all packed up already.) Our adjoining teacher’s room was also similarly rummaged. Someone must have gotten into our rooms (which were locked) some time over the weekend.
It appears that nothing of value was taken, but there were three bags that were packed up with things that the hooligan(s) were presumably going to take but then left behind for some unknown reason. Here are some of the things that they were going to take:
almost empty bottle of hand sanitizer
pencil sharpener (with the shavings dumped out on the table)
plastic forks and knives
staplers and staples
Clearly, these were not professionals as they weren’t interested in things of value like computer equipment or calculators. The miscreants also put a bunch of staples into the wall. And… the best part!! They did some math on the white board.
So since I’m a teacher…
Thievery Assessment Rubric:
Comments: Pencil shavings were left on the table, but there was some interest in hygiene (vis-a-vis the hand sanitizer).
Mathematical content knowledge: 2/4
Comments: Good work on correctly finding the lowest common multiple of 3 and 5 (even though 9 was not listed as a multiple of 3). Also, good job changing 1/3 into 5/15. But how can 1/3 and 2/5 both turn into 5/15? That shows poor mathematical reasoning.
Comments: If you’re going to go to the trouble of breaking in, at least take something of value.
I’m sitting in an empty classroom after my last high school class. Still have to calculate final grades for everyone and clean up the room, but otherwise am done. No strong emotions yet, maybe because it’s too fresh.
Only a handful of students showed up for class today, but a few of them still did math right until the last possible moment. That was a nice feeling to see that they were still interested in learning.
In my last Algebra 1 class, we had a chance to have some closure. I explained that I wouldn’t be returning to the school next year and that normally work at a university. We then talked about the etiquette of giving and receiving business cards and I gave each student my business card.
This afternoon, my Algebra 2 students will come by the room and we’ll go have frozen yogurt together.
When I took over an Algebra 2 class in the middle of the school year, the person in charge of textbooks gave me a bunch of copies of our textbook. I kept these books in my cabinet and unfortunately didn’t keep close track of them. I returned all of the books I had to the textbook office yesterday and I was told that I am still missing 5 Algebra 2 textbooks. If I don’t return them, I will be charged for them. I have no idea where those books would be. The only thing I can think of is that since I use a colleague’s room for Algebra 2, I maybe some other students looked in the cabinet and used those textbooks. ???
Are textbooks as big of a headache at other schools?
By the way, all students are required by law to have textbooks (Williams v. State of California, 2004). Back in May, a woman from our district came to our school to make sure that all students had textbooks. She came into our classes, asked “Do you all have textbooks?” and left in less than 10 seconds. Ta dah!! Our school is “Williams Compliant.”